B

B is for bias..

Nota Pendek

Tekanan semakin menghimpit aku mental fizikal semua terseksa. I need a new environment. Cannot like this forever lah. It hurts so bad I want to jump off building (metafora). Ya Allah, aku bermohon padaMu agar aku tabah menghadapi hari-hari ku di sini, dan ku mohon agar aku dapat peluang yang lebih baik di luar sana secepat yang mungkin. Sampai bila harus begini? Rasa nak menangis tapi air mata tak keluar. Apa yang berlaku dalam seminggu dua ni sangat drastik sampai akal aku tak boleh menerima kenyataan. (Ok budak baru tu senyum2 kat aku). Apa yang aku hadapi sekarang ni yang buat aku tekanan gila, kerja dan masalah peribadi bercampur aduk. Bila nak setel kerja, teringat masalah peribadi. Begitulah sebaliknya. Try to be professional as I can. Yes I can do it but seksa you know.

What should I do?

Dua-dua masalah membebani pemikiran aku yang dah dapat nak berfikiran waras. Nak pergi bercuti, duit tak ada. Kalau duduk di rumah ja tension tak habis-habis. Mental aku kalau lama-lama macam ni. Ya Allah, bantulah aku.

Muntah Data

Fokus wisz fokus. Haaa gitewww kan fokus jak ngan kerja. Terlalu banyak data mok di follow up tok. Angol tahap 10 dah. Lost. Sik tauk nok ney sigek dah di follow up. Adoh2... Belum ada proper system gilak that's why. Sikpa, fokus diri. InsyaAllah semuanya beres.

Turning Tables

Salam. 

It's been a long time. Almost forgot I have this blog. So, here I am again writing my thought for you to read, to know what's going on with my life as per today. Things have changed drastically from the last post I wrote nearly 5 months ago. Yes, I'm still working at the same company, same job, same everything. Well, not everything.. but I'm still living. This post is all about changes.

I have done something terrible I think. I know too many awful things but I decided to keep it to myself. Bad move bro. I don't know what is going on with me. I'm not this kind of person back then. Probably because of the anger issues. This morning, one of my friend said to me "When it starts to become destructive to your life you must take control of it as soon as possible". Everything happens for a reason and I thank Allah swt for that. It took me almost a week to think about what happened before this. And I think I have reach the conclusion.

Someone needs to know what I know. Sebelum kena, baik undur.